In the time around New Year's Day, I felt sort of empty, thinking about the past year and resolutions. Then, like every year, I just stop, as it's a bit pointless, and revert back to what I usually do. Changing one's self can be quite hard if one lacks motivation. So far, the progress on my resolutions have been minimal.
My resolution to draw something every month started out alright, but I've now realized that I should probably avoid realism and portraits for awhile. Instead, abstract, shapes, and crafts should be my focus, as that's what I'm good at.
When it was time to go back to school, I was pretty reluctant, just like I was back in August. By the time I got home, I already had projects and homework. Once again, I got that sick feeling in my stomach, like a knot was there. I just felt like I hated school so much. However, I felt better as I adjusted. Still, being more positive should have been one of my resolutions.
If you think about it, school can be unfair. It's sometimes more about how many friends you have, how shy you are, etc. Grades may partially indicate your intelligence, but they're not entirely accurate. I mean, grading essays and assignments like that isn't always consistent. Sometimes, I'll write without effort and get a better grade than if I did try.
I began driving this month. The first time, I was quite frustrated because I didn't get it and thought I never would. With time, however, I got better and felt optimistic. It's actually kind of a thrill when you get it. Also, I went to places of my city I've never been or haven't been in awhile, which was neat.
After finishing Luther, I'm starting to watch other BBC shows with Warren Brown in them (when I have the time and nothing else to watch). As an American, it's interesting to hear British accents and terms.
Since I watch so many shows, I try to make references in everything. It even helps me memorize things in school because I'll make a connection to television. I kind of wish school was fandom related. Math problems with fictional characters, reading fandom books in English, references in history ... that'd be nice.