With every journal, I try to make it somewhat different from others that I've posted. Although my life isn't all that interesting, it is unique, as no one has my life. People may live similar lives, but will never view things exactly as I view it. Anyway, I do try to incorporate new events and concepts in here, though, so I hope you guys are okay with it. Humans can sometimes seem like small, frail creatures in respect to the universe, but within all of us is a world of individualism. The planet may be limited to a certain amount of area, but that's a lot, not to add on all the history of each place. Also, as we begin to expand outward, who knows what we will find? Just concepts that have been in my mind this past month.
I obtained my first phone this month, and am not really sure how I feel. It's my uncle's old Galaxy SII Skyrocket that he gave to me. I just use it to do basic things - check the time or take pictures (of homework and things I want to upload here). However, I did sort of customize it by setting Doctor Who related images for the lock screen and home wallpaper. Also, my ring tone is the Eleventh Doctor's theme, "I am the Doctor." The first thing I downloaded was Doctor Who Legacy, which is cool and has great music. Having a phone has become nice and useful.
After a shaky start, my grades are picking back up, which is a good feeling. Succeeding on tests and other papers is great! However, it's a constant battle to try and maintain good averages. In the end, I know I'll be okay, though.
My brother upsets me every once in awhile, and usually, I'll just try to ignore his comments. He isn't very deep, and doesn't care much for a good plot. Instead, he watches shows and movies anticipating the action scenes. I know I've said this before, but it makes me curious. When will he become more mature or reach puberty? The former I wish he'd be, the latter not so much. It frustrates me sometimes how much I think about the opposite sex. I guess it's a part of life, but still.
Thanksgiving break is a gift and a relief. Although it passed by and school has started back up once more, I'm grateful for it. When the day came, I had been looking forward to it all week, but I woke up slightly uncomfortable. Then, throughout the day, I just sort of felt melancholy. We went to church (in which I wore nice clothes, which felt good) and then to my uncle's house. Although we ate and it was nice, it wasn't the best. Plus, some people weren't present, and my grandfather has been feeling down for awhile. Anyway, we left my uncle's house to go to the mall for Black Friday, or Thursday, whatever. Turns out, my mother got the time wrong, so we had to wait an hour before the doors opened. To make things worse, my father had locked himself out, and we spent forever trying to get it open using a wire hangar. It was bad because my father is stubborn (like the rest of the family, including me), and was pretty angry, so I tried to avoid talking to him. Eventually, we had to call a locksmith and got home late.
The next day, Friday, I ate turkey leftovers all day with gravy, stuffing, and corn. It was good. My father drove my mother to the mall, but when they came home, they were in conflict, which just really depresses my heart every time. When my mother is in that mood, everything my father does is wrong in her eyes. While she rants unreasonably, my father just gets more and more frustrated as he tries to defend himself. Reminds me of my brother and I sometimes, but we don't fight to that intensity (usually). Every time we talk for an extended amount of time, there is bound to be disagreement. In the end, though, everything is fine, as I've mentioned before.
A couple more weeks and winter break begins as well as the new year. I'll push through school and finals until then. How time flies. Every year, I feel like a more evolved person (and reflect upon this when the new year comes), which is good - not perfect or even close to where I want to be, but some progress is acceptable. It's better than no change, anyway.
As I continue to try to neglect the fact that college is nearing on me, my interests has somewhat changed. Art will always be in my heart, but for the past year, it has sort of slowly been hidden away. Honestly, I haven't made the effort to draw recently. I don't know if I can ever become an artist, so my perspective is more open. It sounds a little silly, but watching crime shows has interested me in that field. When I go to the city, it makes me want to become an architect. I simply am not sure on anything - just that I want to have a successful and decent life.
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Listening to: Overdrive - Calvin Harris
Watching: Sleepy Hallow